Well today certainly started out weird. We had a little thing last night for my brother's birthday, and I think when it all ended around 5am? lol I crashed around 6, and after working out earlier in the day and being all sore once I got in bed, I woke up at 4pm today >____________________> So yeah, pretty stupid way to get things started, I was totally bummed I'd missed the whole day. lol More to come on the lame-ness of this Memorial day, but let's kick things back a little.
Lately I haven't wanted to play ffxi at all. I find that more often than not, I log-on and stand around my mog house. I'll check my friend's list, see if anyone's on to talk to, or if anyone's up to something that's fun or they'd need help with. If nothing comes of that, I'll either stick around in MH doing nothing, or hit whitegate looking for stuff to do from the shouts. I even have quite a few jobs I need to level for subs and/or mains, but I'm just totally out of motivation at this point. Why is it I'm this way? This is probably a very easy go-to, but I blame my linkshell alllllll the way. lol Things have really been going downwards, and as a person who sometimes has to lead events I really feel it when things go badly, and it just shits all over my day. lol
The other half of the coin in this severe case of "blah" I'm suffering from is lack of people to spend time with. It just seems like when you see or think of people, you usually associate them with a few other people, or see them in a group of people that they always seem to be around. I just don't have that anymore, I've had "cliques" from time to time, but they always seem to end abruptly. At this point I'm just "tag along" guy and that is still fun, but I don't feel like I belong when it all ends, and am eventually back to my starting point. I mean in the last month or so, I've made characters on 2 different servers just to see people I talk to a lot on this site, but that really doesn't work out all that well since you can't do a whole lot as a Lv1 mule! lol I do appreciate the company of those I've visited and been visited by, though. :)
Anywho, I guess this blog isn't really about anything. I just finished writing up a little mini-dissertation to my linkshell about my future with them, though, but it needs a little "grr" editing so as not to cause a bunch of drama in the end. lol Oh wait, there was a point to this ...so uh, my day? Okay so I'm obviously kind of moody and grumpy at this point, and although I woke up when the day was half-over, I was at least looking forward to doing a little celebrating tonight along the lines of last night. We were talking about maybe getting some fireworks, and buying a few different types of the newer Sam Adams' varieties to try out just because of all the damn commercials on lately. lol So that sounded pretty fun to me, once some family and friends showed up, but it really just never happened. No one really wanted to do fireworks just because of gas being so high lately and it being kind of a shitty expense once they're all gone in 10 minutes. I mean fireworks rock and all, but blah, gas is almost $4 a gallon here and my car is not kind to my wallet. lol So from that we haz no fiyawerkz, and beer is really the only saving grace, but at that point some other plans came up for friends and it was really just kind of a lame thing to do. Plus the kids were over with family so it just wasn't one of those "omgz gettun drunk go!" nights.
I don't want to come off as the "awman I wantz to partay;-;" type, but I was hoping to at least have fun tonight since so far this week has been unusually fun and I wanted to keep things going, but oh well. I've thoroughly blown off all the steam from tonight just from writing myself silly, so I guess I'll wrap this up. Btw, anyone watch the fight Saturday night? Silva kicked Jardeen's ass so hard, I both love and hate those obscenely short fights. lolol Thanks for reading, comments always welcome. <3
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