i confronted someone and spoke the truth to how i really felt and like i knew it was gonna slap me in the face, i feel like shit now, i dropped my pearlsack, and i'm prepared to be blacklisted by many. doesnt help the person i confronted i was close to and not surprisingly is close to many ppl i know...i'm not the best person in the world but i don't lie. i've already lost my rly good friends as far as i'm concerned. i see no point in trying to keep up a facade when i'm truly not happy. she can be angry with me all she wants. excuse me for caring. i think i've lost someone i considered close to me a long time ago. that wound is deep and there's no recovery. guess u never get over ur first love. even if it was a lie. hmmm lies i seem to be surrounded by them, hard to distinguish truth from reality. i'm spending more time in the real world so all im searching for is the reality in things. cant break me again, im already broken. bleh no more emo bullshit. i'm taking a new view on things and finding reality in fantasy. cuz everything was just a beautiful lie. these ppl arent real and they dont care about u, the human u, they only care about ur char, a mere shadow of u if they even care at all. k im done.

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